1 00:00:01,500 --> 00:00:03,759 The main advantage from my secret blog, 2 00:00:03,760 --> 00:00:06,561 he helped me not to have ashamed of my sexual experiences. 3 00:00:07,061 --> 00:00:10,103 The paradox is that as soon as It was no longer a secret, 4 00:00:10,138 --> 00:00:11,684 It stopped working. 5 00:00:11,719 --> 00:00:15,409 I wondered if my sex life was always intended to 6 00:00:15,444 --> 00:00:18,231 make me discover connections incredible or feel disconnected. 7 00:00:18,232 --> 00:00:20,790 Alex, you just received a message to move a meeting. 8 00:00:20,791 --> 00:00:23,613 - Oh, thank you. -And then I looked at your photos. 9 00:00:24,297 --> 00:00:25,997 There are some beautiful photos of you in there. 10 00:00:27,838 --> 00:00:30,966 - How far back did you go? - I don't know, not far. 11 00:00:31,430 --> 00:00:33,243 A little too much. 12 00:00:33,244 --> 00:00:36,767 You can't just watch the album photo of a gay guy, Jamie, it's dangerous. 13 00:00:36,802 --> 00:00:38,291 I just realized it. 14 00:00:40,587 --> 00:00:41,975 What is a meeting? 15 00:00:41,976 --> 00:00:44,093 My former assistant hires writers at his new job. 16 00:00:44,128 --> 00:00:46,377 I was wondering how you were going to pay the rent. 17 00:00:46,378 --> 00:00:49,059 - Me too. - Shall we have dinner together this evening? 18 00:00:49,211 --> 00:00:52,570 - I have an appointment. - With one of the guys in the photo? 19 00:00:52,658 --> 00:00:54,814 No, with someone I met in person. 20 00:00:54,968 --> 00:00:59,038 Do you mind if I call Niko? I wondered if that was weird. 21 00:00:59,406 --> 00:01:02,022 It is, but why not. 22 00:01:03,239 --> 00:01:06,615 Hey, listen. You count stay how long? 23 00:01:06,686 --> 00:01:09,110 This is what I wanted talk to you tonight. 24 00:01:09,791 --> 00:01:12,574 - All right. - It's nice to have me here, isn't it? 25 00:01:13,879 --> 00:01:17,038 - Yes, very nice. - I would like to stay all summer. 26 00:01:17,723 --> 00:01:20,155 -Jamie... - I can't go back. 27 00:01:20,235 --> 00:01:21,763 Mom and Dad are always on my back 28 00:01:21,834 --> 00:01:24,666 - and I have no life there. - It's very expensive, New York. 29 00:01:24,771 --> 00:01:27,266 It is not possible financially, I can barely get by on my own. 30 00:01:27,267 --> 00:01:28,590 - I found a job. - It's true ? 31 00:01:28,597 --> 00:01:31,227 I showed up in a gallery that I love and they hired me 32 00:01:31,262 --> 00:01:33,858 on site for reception. I'm going be able to help you pay the rent. 33 00:01:33,893 --> 00:01:36,874 It's great. Congratulations. 34 00:01:36,909 --> 00:01:40,975 - I still have to think about it again. - I haven't bothered you yet, though? 35 00:01:42,296 --> 00:01:45,568 It's just that I haven't lived with no one since Paul. 36 00:01:45,603 --> 00:01:48,841 - This is a significant change. - All right. Think, 37 00:01:49,168 --> 00:01:50,777 and then say yes. 38 00:01:53,233 --> 00:01:55,442 Congratulations on your position as editor. 39 00:01:55,443 --> 00:01:58,029 You're the one who tells people what to do writers now. Isn't that great? 40 00:01:58,030 --> 00:01:59,849 Not really so far. 41 00:01:59,921 --> 00:02:01,889 We publish hundreds articles per week 42 00:02:01,977 --> 00:02:04,265 on the best locations in 14 cities 43 00:02:04,266 --> 00:02:07,336 - and I'm already overwhelmed. - I would love to write a whole series of them for you. 44 00:02:07,337 --> 00:02:09,569 - How much does it pay? - 25 cents per word. 45 00:02:09,649 --> 00:02:11,970 About $60 per item. 46 00:02:11,971 --> 00:02:14,529 I can start with 10 right away and we would leave from there? 47 00:02:14,530 --> 00:02:17,569 You need to write a free test. 48 00:02:17,737 --> 00:02:20,205 Then we will see for the following depending on the result. 49 00:02:20,569 --> 00:02:23,641 A test? Just a few words advertising on a restaurant? 50 00:02:23,753 --> 00:02:27,257 It's not advertising. We select the best experiences 51 00:02:27,258 --> 00:02:30,136 to help our readers choose among what their city has to offer. 52 00:02:30,241 --> 00:02:32,025 What do you want me to write about? 53 00:02:32,138 --> 00:02:34,585 There is a new spa on 28th Street, 200 words. 54 00:02:34,697 --> 00:02:36,077 Easy. 55 00:02:40,537 --> 00:02:44,605 I'm good with words. I was a skinny, gay kid, 56 00:02:44,701 --> 00:02:48,105 so I learned very early how to use words to defend myself. 57 00:02:48,268 --> 00:02:50,144 I can write easily. 58 00:03:00,835 --> 00:03:03,711 You try too hard on us sell this place. 59 00:03:03,831 --> 00:03:06,215 You see when you go out all the time with new guys 60 00:03:06,295 --> 00:03:09,887 and they are all good but you like to have choice, 61 00:03:09,888 --> 00:03:11,951 so you are relaxed with each of them? 62 00:03:12,055 --> 00:03:15,758 Write like that. Don't try to convince anyone. 63 00:03:15,911 --> 00:03:18,344 I don't go out all the time with different guys. 64 00:03:18,462 --> 00:03:22,655 Listen, take a few days, go maybe take a trip to the spa. 65 00:03:22,747 --> 00:03:26,979 Then try again. I know that you you'll get there, I know you. 66 00:03:40,894 --> 00:03:44,355 - Hey! What's new ? - Would you like a drink and a massage? 67 00:03:44,595 --> 00:03:46,181 I have to write about a new spa. 68 00:03:46,182 --> 00:03:48,149 I'm working on a project this evening. 69 00:03:48,150 --> 00:03:49,721 I'm going to need a model by the way. 70 00:03:50,126 --> 00:03:51,850 Do you mind if I contact Reese? 71 00:03:51,851 --> 00:03:53,186 Are you serious? 72 00:03:53,187 --> 00:03:55,171 There are millions of others models in New York. 73 00:03:55,259 --> 00:03:58,683 - Do you have their number? - Very good, I will send you his number. 74 00:04:03,439 --> 00:04:06,455 I shouldn't lose my temper like that when someone asks me something. 75 00:04:06,512 --> 00:04:09,840 But right now, I have to find someone who expects nothing from me. 76 00:04:18,016 --> 00:04:19,739 Be your own boss! 77 00:04:22,888 --> 00:04:24,274 I'm jealous. 78 00:04:24,275 --> 00:04:26,507 I have to work for someone who scares me otherwise 79 00:04:26,508 --> 00:04:27,983 I would never do anything. 80 00:04:28,239 --> 00:04:29,991 - How is Amy? - Who ? 81 00:04:31,119 --> 00:04:33,478 - Can I ask you a question? - Yeah, no need to ask. 82 00:04:33,513 --> 00:04:35,838 Do you sometimes wonder if you have too many reports? 83 00:04:35,839 --> 00:04:39,080 If we can cross a limit and become... 84 00:04:39,511 --> 00:04:40,840 A man whore? 85 00:04:41,206 --> 00:04:43,084 - I guess, yeah. - No. 86 00:04:44,235 --> 00:04:47,371 - Is that all? No ? - Who cares about the number of reports I have. 87 00:04:48,403 --> 00:04:50,531 One day I will get married, I will one or two carpet levelers 88 00:04:50,603 --> 00:04:52,599 and I will be old, fat and bald, 89 00:04:52,712 --> 00:04:54,959 but for now, I am spreading my seed. 90 00:04:55,967 --> 00:04:59,047 - But you have no remorse? - Why would I have them? 91 00:05:00,123 --> 00:05:03,627 Man, I'm already drunk. What are you doing nice this evening? 92 00:05:03,762 --> 00:05:06,791 I have to go see a massage parlor about which I must write, 93 00:05:06,847 --> 00:05:09,687 - and I have an appointment afterwards. - Great. 94 00:05:10,647 --> 00:05:13,056 I would really like a massage there. 95 00:05:13,639 --> 00:05:16,148 - Do you want to go get a massage? - Oh yes. 96 00:05:26,579 --> 00:05:29,687 Well, come in. Don't just stand there like that. 97 00:05:29,867 --> 00:05:35,015 - I've never done that before. - Did what? Sleep with a guy? 98 00:05:35,087 --> 00:05:37,191 No, I had a friend in high school. 99 00:05:37,327 --> 00:05:39,679 I had never been to a stranger's apartment before. 100 00:05:39,823 --> 00:05:42,783 - You're not going to murder me, are you? - I haven't killed anyone yet. 101 00:05:44,080 --> 00:05:45,759 There needs to be a first times at everything. 102 00:05:49,184 --> 00:05:52,276 - Do you have something to drink? - Are you old enough to drink? 103 00:05:52,355 --> 00:05:54,683 - A coke? - I only have beer. 104 00:05:54,795 --> 00:05:58,403 - I'm going to have a beer. - I wouldn't want to corrupt a minor. 105 00:05:58,507 --> 00:06:00,627 I am not a minor, I'm 19 years old. 106 00:06:00,915 --> 00:06:02,419 I can't tell you serve a beer. 107 00:06:31,927 --> 00:06:34,663 Hey, look at me. 108 00:06:39,915 --> 00:06:45,147 - Why am I attracted to you? - I don't know. I guess you're my type. 109 00:06:45,435 --> 00:06:49,707 - Why do you want to sleep with me? - For the experience. 110 00:07:02,760 --> 00:07:06,495 - What's your name? - John Bissen. 111 00:07:09,607 --> 00:07:12,847 - What are you studying? - The law. 112 00:07:15,439 --> 00:07:17,286 You should change your option. 113 00:07:21,519 --> 00:07:25,343 - Why are you getting dressed again? - I can't sleep with you. 114 00:07:25,907 --> 00:07:29,291 - I'm not cute enough? - No. Well no, that's not it. 115 00:07:29,427 --> 00:07:31,715 You don't need experience. 116 00:07:33,243 --> 00:07:34,642 Yeah, that's it. 117 00:07:37,538 --> 00:07:40,443 Sorry, they didn't have any more than a couple's room. 118 00:07:40,444 --> 00:07:42,263 It doesn't matter. 119 00:07:43,586 --> 00:07:46,802 Um, are you keeping your underwear on or not? 120 00:07:46,837 --> 00:07:51,185 - We're supposed to take it off. - Never mind. 121 00:08:01,167 --> 00:08:02,728 You really are a great friend. 122 00:08:05,549 --> 00:08:09,016 - I'm really going to miss you. - I left Gawker, not New York. 123 00:08:09,310 --> 00:08:14,183 - Do you like it when it's firm? - Um, yes, very firm. 124 00:08:20,206 --> 00:08:21,734 - Hey. - Hi. 125 00:08:28,407 --> 00:08:31,268 How do you want me? In underwear? 126 00:08:32,012 --> 00:08:34,228 - I think it will work. - Cool. 127 00:08:35,552 --> 00:08:39,334 - I didn't know you did that. - This is new to me. 128 00:08:41,918 --> 00:08:43,870 I am all yours. 129 00:08:51,410 --> 00:08:55,226 The worst thing about being a writer, we think too much. 130 00:08:55,370 --> 00:08:59,618 Sometimes I have so many words in my head that they just come out of my mouth. 131 00:09:01,634 --> 00:09:05,890 - Can I ask you a question? - NOW ? 132 00:09:08,010 --> 00:09:12,067 You don't wonder if it's victims of sex trafficking? 133 00:09:13,294 --> 00:09:17,358 - It pays well, my darling. Relax. - All right. 134 00:09:17,614 --> 00:09:21,430 - You tip well, okay? - Take care of me and I will take care of you. 135 00:09:36,714 --> 00:09:38,610 How long have you been doing this? 136 00:09:38,778 --> 00:09:41,250 This is the first time that I do it for me. 137 00:09:41,361 --> 00:09:45,105 We have a team that takes care of this at work. I give them my sketches 138 00:09:45,193 --> 00:09:47,353 and they make clothes from it. 139 00:09:47,786 --> 00:09:51,250 I like being part of the process, I can feel what you are doing to me. 140 00:09:51,388 --> 00:09:56,170 It's amazing how the tissue forms on your body. 141 00:09:56,242 --> 00:09:58,249 It's so much better than sketches. You breathe in my clothes. 142 00:09:59,673 --> 00:10:02,886 I guess your underwear bothers a little. 143 00:10:03,037 --> 00:10:05,534 Take it off if you want. 144 00:10:28,730 --> 00:10:33,066 Is that what you were drawing? It's fantastic! 145 00:10:33,569 --> 00:10:35,121 Now he's doing well. 146 00:10:36,646 --> 00:10:41,202 - I adore. You're a genius. - THANKS. 147 00:10:43,034 --> 00:10:46,210 To tell the truth, I find that it's so perfect 148 00:10:46,322 --> 00:10:48,854 that it should not be worn with nothing else. 149 00:10:56,501 --> 00:11:00,154 Guys, guys! Do we could you remove it first? 150 00:11:00,335 --> 00:11:02,618 I don't want to damage it. 151 00:11:09,745 --> 00:11:12,769 - Did you like it? - I think so. 152 00:11:12,945 --> 00:11:15,985 I don't know if I made you less gay or if you made me gayer. 153 00:11:16,186 --> 00:11:17,650 Both, I think. 154 00:11:20,257 --> 00:11:23,822 - A pizza, what do you think? - No thanks, I have an appointment. 155 00:11:23,902 --> 00:11:26,878 Twice in one day, you are my hero. 156 00:11:33,302 --> 00:11:35,238 - Hey. - Hi. 157 00:11:37,966 --> 00:11:40,198 Table or toilet? 158 00:11:40,502 --> 00:11:44,897 Since we've already broken all the rules, let's go straight to the toilet. 159 00:11:45,042 --> 00:11:48,449 - What if we got out of here? - Actually, yes. 160 00:11:48,746 --> 00:11:50,858 I'm not sure so that my stomach can 161 00:11:50,938 --> 00:11:52,962 cash in this restaurant twice in a week. 162 00:11:56,450 --> 00:12:00,658 I love the food of this restaurant, but the leader is a true egotarian. 163 00:12:00,754 --> 00:12:04,682 - What is that? - It's the trend of the moment in New York. 164 00:12:04,705 --> 00:12:08,818 What matters is the boss's ego what you really want to eat. 165 00:12:08,890 --> 00:12:12,102 - I thought I was the only one who thought that. - No. 166 00:12:12,222 --> 00:12:15,542 Sometimes you want to eat a dish you've already heard of. 167 00:12:15,638 --> 00:12:17,870 We're good together then. 168 00:12:20,025 --> 00:12:25,478 - Should we go to your place then? - I don't think that's possible. 169 00:12:25,566 --> 00:12:30,902 - Why not at your place? - We could go to an alley. 170 00:12:32,318 --> 00:12:34,402 Or do it against a building? 171 00:12:57,320 --> 00:12:58,944 Do you want to walk a little? 172 00:13:00,576 --> 00:13:04,744 - You want your date now. - I want to get to know you. 173 00:13:09,175 --> 00:13:12,831 - What do you do for a living ? - I am an architect. 174 00:13:13,280 --> 00:13:16,716 It's true ? You are going to me make you blush. 175 00:13:16,808 --> 00:13:20,204 You shouldn't. We are all a little crazy. 176 00:13:21,396 --> 00:13:23,603 Have I already seen one of your creations? 177 00:13:24,835 --> 00:13:27,723 I could show you something thing, we're not far away. 178 00:13:38,408 --> 00:13:42,223 - Dude, are you watching me pee? - If you drink and piss in public, 179 00:13:42,282 --> 00:13:45,111 it is my duty to look so that you are ashamed. 180 00:13:46,208 --> 00:13:49,112 - Nice cock. - Oh yes ? 181 00:13:51,184 --> 00:13:53,736 - Do you like cocks? - Yeah. 182 00:14:01,784 --> 00:14:04,272 - Do you live near here? - Yeah. 183 00:14:05,920 --> 00:14:08,631 - Where are you from? - From here. 184 00:14:09,039 --> 00:14:11,751 - From Manhattan? - All my life. 185 00:14:11,816 --> 00:14:16,155 I studied at Columbia. I am not only left for two years for my master's degree. 186 00:14:16,372 --> 00:14:20,068 - Where? - �New Haven. 187 00:14:22,276 --> 00:14:27,267 - You really are perfect. - No, really not. 188 00:14:28,499 --> 00:14:32,652 I didn't study in any major school and I am an unemployed writer. 189 00:14:33,668 --> 00:14:38,712 - You're really cute though. - Is that all that matters to you? 190 00:14:38,824 --> 00:14:40,684 It's a good start. 191 00:14:43,811 --> 00:14:47,716 I don't want to miss anything important because we go to bed too quickly. 192 00:14:47,717 --> 00:14:49,076 Like what ? 193 00:14:51,924 --> 00:14:56,012 I don't know, it's not like Is this supposed to work? 194 00:14:57,028 --> 00:14:59,303 In my opinion, meetings, It goes back to another era. 195 00:14:59,396 --> 00:15:02,007 When it was necessary protect her virginity. 196 00:15:02,127 --> 00:15:04,736 - Or before antibiotics. - Yeah. 197 00:15:04,823 --> 00:15:06,696 People should just sleep together 198 00:15:06,752 --> 00:15:11,408 and then see what type of connection develops naturally. 199 00:15:11,505 --> 00:15:14,016 Oh, that explains why you caught me in the toilet. 200 00:15:14,160 --> 00:15:16,695 What do you mean, caught? You followed me. 201 00:15:17,664 --> 00:15:22,039 - You gave me a sign. - No, I just wanted to pee. 202 00:15:22,159 --> 00:15:23,892 Oh, I'm the bitch then. 203 00:15:25,204 --> 00:15:28,108 You stuck your hand in my pants, I behaved like a perfect gentleman. 204 00:15:28,876 --> 00:15:34,211 Smooth talker. Be honest with me. 205 00:15:37,970 --> 00:15:39,287 All right. 206 00:15:45,800 --> 00:15:47,827 I love to walk in town at night. 207 00:15:48,040 --> 00:15:49,544 Me too. 208 00:15:51,008 --> 00:15:54,320 It's easy to get the impression that the place is ours when there is no one. 209 00:15:54,511 --> 00:15:57,937 It's like a cinema set, we are two characters 210 00:15:58,041 --> 00:16:00,408 and this magnificent city represents our epic fund. 211 00:16:01,552 --> 00:16:03,648 This is why I wanted to become an architect. 212 00:16:04,056 --> 00:16:08,348 I wanted to be able to change the landscape to have 213 00:16:08,452 --> 00:16:14,037 the feeling that everything has meaning. That we're not just passing through. 214 00:16:15,797 --> 00:16:18,916 I suppose a building is the closest thing to immortality. 215 00:16:19,796 --> 00:16:24,052 I haven't made one yet. But I'll tell you what. 216 00:16:25,492 --> 00:16:26,997 You will get there. 217 00:16:32,144 --> 00:16:33,472 There it is, it’s mine. 218 00:16:34,158 --> 00:16:38,332 - Is that true? - The store, not the building. But yes. 219 00:16:39,260 --> 00:16:42,404 It's magnificent. It looks like it's floating. 220 00:16:44,388 --> 00:16:46,728 I tried to create a pure space 221 00:16:47,896 --> 00:16:52,848 who literally withdraws from the urban reality that surrounds it. 222 00:16:54,088 --> 00:16:57,296 A dream in which we want to enter. 223 00:16:58,496 --> 00:17:02,064 I adore. I want to go in there. 224 00:17:20,840 --> 00:17:23,152 Listen, thank you, it was really great. 225 00:17:23,232 --> 00:17:25,095 No problem, it's my job. 226 00:17:25,712 --> 00:17:27,664 I said 200, is that it? 227 00:17:32,128 --> 00:17:33,824 - THANKS. - Thank you. 228 00:17:38,544 --> 00:17:42,305 What if we went back at home now? 229 00:17:45,083 --> 00:17:47,614 Would it bother you if We avoided this time? 230 00:17:51,596 --> 00:17:53,300 All right. 231 00:17:54,084 --> 00:17:58,116 - I want to see you again. - Yeah, me too. 232 00:18:10,464 --> 00:18:14,368 - Hey, man. Are you doing well ? - I'll be there right away. 233 00:18:22,439 --> 00:18:26,464 One minute after our meeting and we both hunt online. 234 00:18:30,412 --> 00:18:32,789 Either we are perfect one for the other, 235 00:18:33,404 --> 00:18:35,531 either it will be a real disaster. 236 00:18:50,935 --> 00:18:54,000 - Does this happen often? - No, never. 237 00:18:56,400 --> 00:19:00,312 - Will you at least get me one? - You should go. 238 00:19:02,196 --> 00:19:05,653 I don't want to forever make the same mistakes again. 239 00:19:06,701 --> 00:19:09,852 - Was it a mistake? - No. 240 00:19:10,420 --> 00:19:13,155 But I don't want you get the wrong ideas. 241 00:19:13,308 --> 00:19:15,292 What false idea? 242 00:19:16,340 --> 00:19:18,916 I don't want you to think that I'm a slut. 243 00:19:19,036 --> 00:19:22,241 But don't think that I am neither is an altar boy. 244 00:19:24,121 --> 00:19:27,585 - I caught you in the toilet. - You finally admit it. 245 00:19:27,768 --> 00:19:31,016 Of course. I didn't want you think I do this all the time. 246 00:19:31,385 --> 00:19:35,064 I guess all the bitches have a little puritanical side. 247 00:19:35,193 --> 00:19:39,785 What if we stopped worrying what the other thinks 248 00:19:39,905 --> 00:19:43,481 and we were being naughty? 249 00:19:59,429 --> 00:20:02,700 - It's still scary. - What ? That? 250 00:20:03,509 --> 00:20:05,557 There is nothing to fear. 251 00:20:05,900 --> 00:20:08,736 You know, everyone fantasize about a huge cock. 252 00:20:08,864 --> 00:20:14,769 This is the absolute metaphor. But in reality, it's quite scary. 253 00:20:16,385 --> 00:20:18,352 What are you afraid of? 254 00:20:20,089 --> 00:20:22,225 I'm afraid it will hurt me. 255 00:20:23,320 --> 00:20:26,584 You don't have to do anything that's if you don't want to. 256 00:20:27,040 --> 00:20:29,480 But I want to do everything with it. 257 00:20:30,136 --> 00:20:32,861 In this case, it will be necessary face your fear then. 258 00:20:34,133 --> 00:20:36,868 I think so, yes. 259 00:20:50,805 --> 00:20:54,804 It probably didn't change anything whether we sleep together tonight or another night. 260 00:20:54,908 --> 00:20:57,173 All this time has passed learn to know yourself, 261 00:20:57,269 --> 00:20:59,976 That meant that I was going sleep with a man I love. 262 00:21:00,040 --> 00:21:02,312 And not only with a big cock. 263 00:21:03,337 --> 00:21:05,856 What's more scary with fantasies, 264 00:21:05,976 --> 00:21:08,530 maybe it's good the possibility that they will come true.